Honestly, I didn’t see this coming. I never expected to be having a baby at this point in my life. As much as I avoided sex as much as possible. But as soon as I got in a comfortable position
this happens. Was I looking for or expecting for this to happen? No but; this is what is going on. So I gotta take the bitter with the sweet and continue to live my life. I’ve dealt with this struggle for at least yrs knowingly. I realize that the older I get, the more severe the complications get for me. At 24, I experienced my very first relapse which was
“Optic Neuritis” 😧😨👀
All I knew was that I woke one day and I couldn’t see well. My vision was distorted in both eyes. Both of my eyes had a film over them. I was scared of what was happening, I wasn’t sure of what to do. So I went to see the optometrist because I was super nervous. Once the optometrist told me after they ran a few tests. So you need to see a neurologist. The tests are telling us that you may have multiple sclerosis.
Multiple Sclerosis? What is that? Where did this come from?
Since I had my very first diagnosis in my 20’s, I learned a very small amount of information regarding this illness. I had never even heard of what a multiple sclerosis was. That was about 20 yrs ago. And I birthed children dealing with MS with no problem.
As of this yr, with this final and last pregnancy I can notice the changes. The Dr’s are more concerned with this pregnancy now. Well relapses are relapses and they happen almost everyday. I’ve learned to just come to terms with it because I AM A MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS SURVIVOR this is my life and has been for almost 20 yrs.
It’s weird to me, I guess the more Dr’s are doing research the more concerned they become about certain pregnancies with MS. My pregnancy was certainly questionable because I am over the typical baby making age because I am over the age of 40. I turned 41 this yr in May.
And then I have to add on the fact that I have MS adds more of a kinda danger sense because of the fact that I have MS and the relapses can be astronomical. Now l have had a ton of relapses including all of my trips and falls. I’ve broken my left arm and fell on my face scarring my lip and directly under my nose right on top of my lip.
Life with MS has always been a lot of ups and Downs with numerous unexpected events. Now that I am at the end of the road with this final pregnancy; I don’t expect for this new baby to be as big as the rest of my children because as I have been living life with this debilitating disease for almost half of my life and the older that I get the harder it is on my body. I can’t necessarily gain a lot of weight anymore and my body mass is shrinking. I have about a week left to go with this 🤰pregnancy and I can’t wait my baby to be born. He is healthy and happy and that means the world to me. #MultipleSclerosis #Disability #Baby #Kids #Happiness #Love #Life #Trips #Falls #Pregnancy #BrokenBones #Scars #BodyMass #WeightLoss #Shrinking #Writers